A Poem From Years Ago

When I was a teenager, I'm guessing just like many teenagers, I had a complicated concept of what life was supposed to be. Everything was melodramatic and everything had to have a thrill or it was just not worth living. Anyway, I was going through some old things of mine and I found this poem that I wrote a long time ago. I interests me to read it and think that at some point I too was a dreaming teen. Enjoy...

Life isn't worth living if you're not here

I know you want me to disappear

You don't want to love me anymore

You told me standing by the door

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I wish I could just turn away

But there is no wishing now a day

I fell like the ashes in an ashtray

That if hit by the wind will forever go away

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Away is where we both want to be

Somewhere far, or deep, where you can't see me

Deep under the ocean's rocks or in the earth itself

Or maybe as far away as Hell

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There is only one way to get in through those gates

And after death that is what awaits

You said yourself I was gonna burn

From now until the ground or in an urn

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Life is not a wonderful thing

At least not for me...sadness is what it brings

Maybe it's time for life to be no more

for me to close my eyes and let my spirit soar.

~Jonmicol~